This is more of the same.

When I had to write essays regularly (almost a year ago now) I would write out a skeletal winding mess of ideas, then come back to it every day to try and make some of these ideas coherent. What I usually ended up with would be much like yesterday's post, several seemingly unrelated ideas, and I would have to pull them together. Sometimes it worked and sometimes it didn't.

I've been thinking about the computer thing a lot. But the biggest problem I had writing essays for school was that I really hated writing a polished piece all in a little two dimensional box. Before I had my blogs I would write everything on unlined scrap paper, draw diagrams and pictures to sort things out. I'm hardly proficient enough at programming (or proficient at all) to write on a computer how I write by hand. So I figured all I needed to do was learn to write "my way" on a computer, something that's always alluded me. And so I have "Write Now" so I can write whatever I'm pondering, on a computer and try to learn how to make my online research, my live research and my useless ideas come together on a screen.

The problem for me though may in fact be the screen, the low resolution, the slight delay, trying to type as fast as I think, though I'm getting there. Also I write a lot at night, and the glow off my computer screen burns my eyes at about two or three in the morning when I should be sleeping. I could never write, watch movies, talk to people so easily in bed, and I think it's a huge problem. Like most of my mothers side of the family, especially the women, I enjoy being in bed. We've got a bed culture thing happening that I'm continuing the grand tradition of. I also hate chairs and tables, so it all points in one direction: I hate to learn to love and live with my lap-top.